Things and such

Hi there, not much going on at the moment, but for the sake of keeping this updated i'm just gonna write some random thoughts.. Where to start? hmmm...

Im currently listening to some 80's music, something I havent done in a looong time. On the recommendation of Zac i got ahold of some "The Outfield" music.. Classic 80's stylings.. The song "Your Love" is great, it reminds me of those movies where two lovers meet at the end and everything is fine and they live happily ever after.. They got some other good ones too "Taking my chances" , "Talk to me" , "All the Love", all good tunes.. Others I've been listening to is Asia, Europe, Ratt, Starship, Scorpions. Love this music, it's so nostalgic, even though I wasnt really 'with it' in the 80's considering I was a toddler at the time. I wish I could go back in time at this age and start an awesome 80's band. I dont know whether I would stick to the 80's hair metal scene or go more the way of Toto. Ahhh Toto, another great band.. One thing is for sure I would go to as many concerts as I could.. The music is timeless, it did have its fair share of bad stuff, but all in all it was a golden age for music.

hmm wat else? oh yeah I guess I should say I have decided to stay in Canada for another year. Pending my visa renewal... I will stay here another year, see more of Canada and more importantly remain together with my girlfriend until we have both have a good amount of money to make the journey back to the merry old land of Aus. At first I didnt like the idea because another year away from home is not exactly my cup of tea.. It got me thinking of the things I miss the most.. A good home, mum,cooked meal for one.. I took that for granted when I was there.. the food she cooked was awesome in retrospect. Other things like my warm, comfortable, familiar, bed. My drums... oh boy my drums... It was more than just an instrument, it was my release from the world and all its bullshite. I might invest in a second hand one here just to keep up the skillz. On the upside staying another year isnt so bad, I can spend my time travelling the world which is what I really wanna do at this point in my life. The next couple years, will see me go to Europe and other places.. This October I will probably be going to see Hawaii for a week which will be sweet. Time will tell on the rest..

At this point I dont ever see me having a full time job somewhere, I guess if I'm not in a profession I love everyday, I dont think i'll ever be happy with just one job. I've been looking at some game companies here in Canada, there are a few, but again I have to build up alot of experience to even come close to it. Being close to America has it's perks too I guess... With the plethora of Production Studios and all. But yeah, travelling from place to place, making a good deal of money in a short amount of time is a pretty good way to see the world.

Hmm wat else? Saw "Untraceable" wasnt a bad movie, the idea was pretty cool. It had some pretty cool tech moments, and the kill scenes were well thought out.

Nothing much else is going on. I wish there was but theres nothing.. haha..
Till next time
Peaceout
STiX

Submarine Concept

Latest painting, I incoporated some new techniques with this one. It took me about 10 hrs to complete and am happy with how it turned out. I really wanted to push the lighting in this and play around with a darkness concept.

The artist within...

I usually don’t like to complain to someone about the feelings I’m having about stuff I’m going through.. I usually keep all this shit within me and try to work out my problems from there. So I thought I’d try writing some stuff on here and see what happens. It won’t actually change anything but I think it will only benefit me to get things off my chest.

My number one problem at this moment in time is the art stuff. I love to do digital paintings, its one hobby that gives me pleasure as I do it…. No not sexual pleasure… Just a deep feeling of satisfaction that I can do something like this. I’m at no means a great artist, I still have a lot to learn and do continue to learn new things as time goes by. However I hate the fact that I don’t advance as quickly as I want, it brings me down that I’m not ‘there’ yet. I’ve been at it for about 3-4 years now and I am slowly improving, but not that much. It’s a line of business that I desperately want to be in, that is, creating conceptual art for a movie and/or game company. But I know for me to be in that business I have to have degrees and/or a good deal of work experience to even come close to it.

Most of this bitterness though comes from being apart of this website called http://www.gfxartist.com. It’s basically a site where people from around the world submit their art to each other and everyone has their say on it. This can range from complete scrutiny to absolute praise of a persons art. I’ve been using the site for a while now and every time I submit a new piece of art it sometimes(well most of the time) doesn’t get any comments or positive reviews. Now I KNOW I’m not good but it doesn’t help your self esteem about something when some jerk comes along and gives you shit about your work. Even though there are other artworks 10 times worse than yours they will get good reviews.. I don’t get it. And it angers me.. But it also bothers me that I need this kind of approval from people I will never meet and don’t care about. I’ve been at this now far too long to just give up on it. But it brings me down to the point where my creativity gets blocked because I am under the mindset that I’ll never release a piece of art that gets appraised. Which brings me back to the whole career I’m trying to get into thing. If a bunch of internet nerds don’t have anything good to say about my art, how can I expect a company will??

Art has always been a matter of opinion, what one person likes another person might not. I get that… But its just so frustrating!!! Aaaargggh!..…. Having said that I’m not going to give up on this, as I said I love doing it, and I will continue to do it whether some jerk likes it or not.

Peaceout.
STiX

First Art Piece For 2008

Yep finally, after 7 months of holidaying I've put it on myself to get back into painting no matter what country I'm in or how crappy doing art on the laptop is.

I used my girlfriend as a reference for this piece, im happy with how it turned out. I could've pushed this one further, but a week has gone by and I want to start new things..